too much ambivalence

I hate forcing myself


to let go

of the special


person that


i need in my life.


I know,


giving up is the only thing that


makes sense


but

at the same time


it's the thing that


complicates me.


I know very well


that I'm so much


better off without it,


yet i feel empty


whenever i try to let go...


Now,

tell me,

is emptiness


better

than constant hurting???